Being away from home has been such a great experience, even with all the tough times. My family has changed so much without me there. I love hearing about all they are doing, yet hearing about it makes me miss it more. I really just miss all the love and hugs. Lately I have just been in need of a big Dad "Bear hug." Hearing "I love you" on the phone, just doesn't seem like enough all the time. They say the house is so empty and incomplete without me and it just makes me laugh, never realized how lively and talkative I was until I am gone. But being ways when there are tough times at home, is super rough for me.
My mom had surgery this past week, and with her being in pain and unable to drive the my siblings to various places for there wild school, sports, rehearsal, work and church schedules, she becomes frustrated. When the house gets out of control and messy, she becomes upset. Hearing her vent on the phone and knowing she is going absolutely crazy, makes me sad. I want to be there helping, cooking meals, playing taxi and cleaning.
Dad has been doing lots of projects around the house and our huge yard, and he is doing it without his number one helper. I used to complain about helping, now I just wish I could be doing work in the yard and spending time with him. I have talked to him lots this week because he is just trying to help Mom be happy and he feels like he is failing. Thats tough, I had no idea what to tell him....he is the big macho one that I think can do anything! I am just a college student, how am I supposed to help him or give him advice!?!? Gotta love him!
Having my 16 year old sister or 12 year old brother call upset about life happenings, is heart wrenching. I am 2 hours away and powerless, I cant help them in any other way but listen to them, and assure them that I love them and everything will be ok. All I really want to do is give them big hugs and take them out to distract them and just have fun alone bonding time. I miss them so much! I have always loved picking them up from school and hearing about their days, friends long list of homework. My sister is like my other half, and I feel so incomplete without her and being the first to hear everything!!!My brother has his first Baseball game of the year this week, and he is pitching for the first time.....and I am missing it. I cant believe it, but I will be home for next weeks games. I missed his choir concert last week, and I missed 3 of my sisters choir concerts. My brother has the lead in the school Musical for the 3rd time in a row this year and I cannot wait to see it in April! He will be Willy Wonka! That really makes me laugh, because its going to be so cheesy compared to all of the other productions he has been in, but oh well it will be fun to see.
So, as I ramble about their happenings, I cant help but be stoked to be home for an entire week with them and a family vacation to California! It will be amazing!
About Me
- Joanna
- I am a student, a sister, a daughter, a friend, a roommate, a lifesaver, a secret keeper, a Christ follower, a hard worker, a role model, a listener, a sober buddy, a 'nanny,' a girly girl, a coach, a good hugger, compassionate, blonde, silly, lovable, sarcastic, and patient....I am ME!
1 comment:
Reading your blog was like deja vu for me. i feel pretty much exactly the same about being away as you. it sounds like your relationship with your family is very much like mine!! it just kills me to be away and be missing out on the happening of the family. it is so hard to hear about all that is going on at home and not being there to be apart of it... but this spring break will be amazing for both of us im sure!!
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